Monday, 29 December 2008
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Hmmm...update?
I want to. I really do.
But...meh.
Christmas is over. For the first time (I think, ever), I did not savour my Christmas season. I desperately missed my family and friends, I felt too busy and rushed, and well, there isn't any snow. I am not whining (am I?), but these are facts and I thought I would share them. I enjoyed Christmas Day with Craig, our first Christmas alone (with Jasper, lol). It rained....a lot. The church roof is leaking. Christmas Eve met me with swollen tonsils with white spots - hurrah. At least sickness waited until kettles were pretty much done. The doctor gave me some antibiotics, but unfortunately, they give me some other ailments. Whine, whine, whine.... This morning we woke up bright and early to go to Oahu for our Officer's Christmas Party, but decided against it, given my health. I slept today - that was nice. Jasper is at the "Pet Hotel" so it's kinda nice (albeit quiet) to just hang around.
Okay, so that sounded all negative and "woe is me."
Pay no attention to that - I am just exhausted.
I can't believe it's almost 2009.
Crazy!
I will soon be 30 - which was never really an issue for me...but now that I think of it...it kinda is. I don't really feel like a "grown up lady" - and I don't think I ever will, not that I need to be...but well....*shrug*
I have been daydreaming far too much and not spending enough time focusing on what I should be. This probably isn't a good thing, but has been keeping me occupied.
I want to see some movies - need to catch up on some. I really want to see James Bond still.I look forward to traveling at the end of January. We are going to Crestmont for TOI and then to Canada after that, for the longest time I have been there since moving the States (if I remember correctly). I am REALLY looking forward to this. I have felt very disconnected/far from my family, especially since being on the Big Island (the whole surrounded by ocean thing), so I would like to spend some quality "face" time with them and my friends.
Well, well...this is long enough and I don't want to vent things and share what need not be shared.
(not that there are such things....)
Oooh, we are newly addicted to airmiles and will soon have enough for 2 roundtrips to England!
Plans will soon be in the works! Even Craig is enjoying to fly now (relatively speaking).
Hmmm....that's all.
Also, sometimes it's best to get something on Netflix before you buy it (if you haven't seen it yet). We both asked for "Spaced" for Christmas (as we both love Simon Pegg), and thankfully we didn't get it. We have been watching disc one through Netflix, but maybe I need to be in a different state of mind to enjoy it (like perhaps in an altered state?)...I don't know. We also Netflixed "League of Gentlemen" which is what "Little Britain" kinda was inspired by...but it's a bit too out there for me.
For real now,
that's all!
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Comments (4)
I pray that you start to feel better soon..i think it's hitting a lot of us pretty hard this year--that end of Christmas slump. Now i look around and think, geez...i need to pack and move again...in a month. *blech* I'm so not motivated...more than anything my excitement these days comes from getting ready to see all of our friends come the end of January!!!
Getting adjusted to Officer life really can take a while. It doesn't help that you got sick, either. So, just give it time!
I'm about to ramble, and "think out loud".....so settle in and get a snack!
I've never been stationed in HI, but my sister was. Her first 5 years as an Officer were spent on Oahu (Kaneohe Corps). She and my brother in law loved the culture and their surroundings. They loved the people. But after 5 years my sister started to get very homesick and lonely. She was relieved when they were moved back to the mainland! Now, 9 years later, they miss HI and wish they could go back! With 2 autistic kids, though, there's no way. The therapy and treatment their boys need just isn't available there. I guess I'm saying to just drink in the whole experience. You are living in a place you may never see again once you leave - try to let as much of it get imprinted on your heart!
Of course, as an Officer's kid, whose Grandparents were Officers (yep, both sets!), and whose Aunts and Uncles were mostly Officers (all but two).....l spent my life moving around and rarely ever lived close to other family members. So, maybe the fact that I spent my life learning how to create family closeness without actual physical proximity doesn't help you - I haven't the slightest clue how to relate on the same scale as you are experiencing!
But then again, those 3 years I spent in Denver might as well have been 3 years on an island. I had just spent 9 years in Southern CA - EVERYONE visits So. CA for one reason or another so I had constant contact with friends and family as they came in and out of the area on business or vacation. My parents had been miraculously stationed only 45 minutes away for my first 6 years on the field (now THERE'S a gift!). My in laws were only a 7 hour drive away. Then came Denver. We knew practically no one. Our appointment (DHQ staff) wasn't a good "fit" for us. The culture in Denver is totally the opposite of that in So. CA. The nearest relative was a 2 day drive away (If you drove 12 hours a day.....). By that 3rd year I felt isolated, miserable, and so very lonely!
It's a tough sacrifice to make as an Officer.....to not have roots, and to not have a say in where you are going to go. So, really it comes down to attitude. You sometimes have to force yourself to be positive, even when you don't feel it! Sometimes when you ACT joyful, you actually BECOME joyful! That's a handy skill to use.....
Last Christmas I was VERY sick the entire Christmas season. I had a cold. I had the flu. I had bronchitis. I had a cold again. I strained my lower back. We were having major issues with the HR and Payroll depts. at DHQ. Argh! I felt like crud the entire time! Our Corps Assistants started calling me "Darth Ronalee" because I was in such a bad mood the entire season! I look back on that and feel so guilty about choosing to be mad at the world. I missed out on so much laughter, fellowship, and ministry opportunity! So, this Christmas I forced myself to act joyful, even when I wasn't feeling it.....and it worked! Most of the time I ended the day having a decent amount of Christmas spirit!!!
I'm praying that you heal up, and get the rest you need. I'll be praying that you find a way to connect with your family and feel that necessary closeness, even if the physical proximity isn't there.
End of story. Amen! :)
P.S. I think Spaced is pretty funny even in an unaltered state of mind.